♥22 November 2011♥
Tuesday, November 22, 2011 | 12:33 AM | 0 hearts♥
I never planned that one day i'll be losing you .
Ex and That "bestie" .
I really hope and dream that everything will be okay , i should have
told you what you meant to me . I'm not daring to express
what's in my heart . If i can see my future that will be
such a relief , but for now i can just pray that my future will be good .
Every night i will be thinking "will i ever get married?"
"will i ever get attached?" "which of my friends will be on my side in the future?"
you know all this thoughts just irritated me , i can never stop thinking bout all this .
Some of my friends asked me to move on , but where can i go ?
Every night you know , thinking of you and also thinking will i ever
go to bed and thank god for giving me him and have a lovely sleep .
I really just hope he will be on my shoes and realize it's very hurtfully .
No, i don't want him back i just want him to realize that being in that situation
it's very hurtfully ! If we ever see each other , i will just look at him .
no point saying Hi to the person who was my hardest to say Bye to .
I seriously can't stand people asking me for Sex , i never had it and i don't wish too !
it's just that 2years ago people just wants to be in love and this year is all about
Sex Sex Sex ! It's so irritating . I'm not rushing to be in love , i want love
to be something magically for me not something that means nothing , cause
some of you feel nothing . My school Prom was today i didn't
go , if i were to attend i will dress as a girl XD
i thought it was a mask theme ? change already uh ? nevermynd it's over .
I know i've done alot of mistake in my life and some of them are gone
it's really to late to apologize . I'm not beauitful or good looking i know
there is some other better looking bapok . i need to smoke now . Goodnight .
she really hope and dream that everything will be okay .